Speaking Up

So, I have been working on my speaking skills, by applying the miracle of The Treasure Map. And I wanted to give you an insight into how the true healing takes place.

Over the last few weeks I have been completing The Speak Up Treasure Map Workbook. Seeking to remove the shadows that land upon my speaking in time. For I wish to connect with my audience in the completion of Perfect Love, and to do this, I need remove the barriers to the awareness of love's presence. 

And whilst I have always been aware of what my year 6 primary school teacher told me in 1985, when I approached her to see if I could be a weekly speaker at the school assembly, I could not discover this within, to truly heal what came to hurt and to harm.

You see, when I was eleven years of age, I remember summoning the courage to speak with my grade teacher. As I moved closer to her in the playground, I had a sinking feeling. "Natasha, what do you want?" she questioned me. "Hi. Miss M." I said. "You know how you have been choosing the assembly speakers? Well, I was wondering if I can be one as well?" Now, I had been thinking of this for days. In fact, it was only a few months prior when I found myself in this school playground, and time seemed to stand still. I remember thinking that I couldn't wait to be older and on the center stage presenting my work to the world. However, my dream of speaking on the stage was about to come crashing down. 

She seemed to laugh at me. I grew even more uneasy. With certainty she replied, "No. You are not good enough." Then she walked away. And I believed her.

I was defeated. She was right. I was not good enough, and that was that.

The following year, I found myself in French class. It was my first year of high school. A school that I adored. The teacher called me to the front of the room. I needed to repeat what I was told and what was written on the blackboard. I did as requested. Then her revelation set it.

"Natasha speaks French like a Spanish cow." The class grew rowdy. I was humiliated and embarrassed. I no longer wanted to speak to anyone.

I have often spoken about these experiences, but I could not clean it up from within (atone) for I could not locate where the pain had been hidden. Until today.

As I mentioned, I have been working on The Speak Up Treasure Map Workbook. I then had to record some meditations. Whilst recording my body began to communicate to me. It started to tremble. What was happening? This shake within...

The memory of "not good enough" and "humiliation" was found inside. I stopped what I was doing and moved into The Good Enough Treasure Map Giftbook. You see, you must seek to clean the darkness when it erupts. From a body tremor to an ego outburst, when the shadows are shown, you best get forgiving within. I took The Good Enough Giftbook, for the issue of not being good enough was coming up. My chance to clean within before it hid somewhere else.

What happened with this? I had a chance to forgive Miss M for the lack of compassion she showed me, as well as myself for believing the lies of ego thinking. Just because someone tells you so, does not make it true. For truth belongs to Perfect Love, not the limited thinking of ego-identification.

I had to come to see that I was good enough. And I have worked incredibly hard to reclaim this truth.

You continue to forgive within, changing your mind from the wrong to the right, until you know and no longer perceive. This allows you to build upon the platform of Perfect Love, that knows safety, security and success.

You must purify your words, to allow the light of Perfect Love to fill them with FAITH and not fear. When you extend light, allowing your words to align with your being then you will be heard. For you will connect in the light of wholeness, holiness and happiness.

What is not working for you is what you must truly forgive. So, who or what is not working for you in business? And are you willing to spend time to follow the FAITH of God to move from hate to healed?

You have the power within to change your story, by changing your mind from wrong to right.

Much love, peace, and Truforgiveness,